Shia LaBeouf On ‘Existential Crisis’, Becoming A Christian, Alec Baldwin

Shia LaBeouf has come out of his self-imposed “public retirement" to open up about his notorious bad boy behavior.

In a sit down with Interview magazine, the 28-year-old talks about finding God; becoming a Christian; the advice Ben Affleck and Steven Spielberg gave him; how Alec Baldwin made him cry; his bromance with fellow actor and Fury co-star, Brad Pitt—and his “marionette puppeteer" father.

As previously reported, in true LaBeouf style, the actor announced his retirement “from all public life," very publicly via Twitter back in February. The announcement came in the midst of a slew of headline grabbing incidents, including an insane head butting bar brawl in London; a highly embarrassing plagiarism scandal; turning up to a movie premiere with a brown paper bag over his head; a VERY bizarre art installation; being physically ejected from a Broadway show; and seeking treatment for alcoholism.

LaBeouf explains that he's been going through “an existential crisis" and has now found God—Popdust has highlights of his interview:

On Christianity:

I found God doing Fury. I became a Christian man, and not in a f*cking bullshit way - in a very real way. I could have just said the prayers that were on the page. But it was a real thing that really saved me. I had good people around me who helped me. [Brad Pitt] was really instrumental in guiding my head through this. Brad comes from a hyper-religious, very deeply Christian, Bible Belt life, and he rejected it and moved toward an unnamed spirituality. Whereas [David Ayers] is a full subscriber to Christianity. But these two diametrically opposed positions both lead to the same spot, and I really looked up to both men.

Props to Brad:

People don't know this about Brad: He's a very thoughtful actor. That's not a motherf*cker who just shows up and does the job. He puts a lot in, so you get a lot out. He's hard on himself, very hard.

On making up with Alec Baldwin:

I've made peace with Baldwin. He was the first dude to hit me up after I got out of court. He sent me an e-mail. It's really beautiful. I was crying on an airplane.

Ben Affleck's advice:

Ben is a really charming dude. He was the first guy who really took me off to the side and made me feel like I could do it. [He told me] 'Keep your head on straight, kid, and don't let all this get to you.' He knew that I had cameras in my face and that there were expectations to perform. I think that's always been my issue. I'm prone to theatrics in my life. Ben saw that I turned reality up to 11. I was a wild man at that wrap party. Ben saw that and was trying to curb it before it became an issue. He was unsuccessful.

Relationship with his dad Jeffrey (a convicted criminal and ex-biker gang member, whom LaBeouf financially supports):

The only time my dad will ever talk to me is when I need him at work. He knows to pick up the Skype phone call, and he knows what I'm looking for. It's not to say 'Hey, Dad.' We manipulate each other. We service each other. I use him when I go to work. It's not a real conversation; it's just an excuse to rev up. He's the marionette puppeteer. My dad is the key to most of my base emotions. My greatest and my worst memories are with my father, all my major trauma and major celebration came from him. It's a negative gift. And I'm not ready to let go of it, because anger has a lot of power. And I financially support his whole lifestyle. I pay him to be my marionette puppeteer.

On controlling his emotions:

I'm trying to find a way to have some control over my actions, my behavior, my ideas, my thoughts, my path in life. But it's very new for me.